Today started like any other Monday. Hectic. I was only 5 minutes late to work though. It could have been worse and it has been worse trust me. Kam went off to daycare and I went to work. After daycare I took Kam to get a slurpee from 7-11. They were giving out free ones so we decided we should go get one. By 5:00 the free ones were all gone, we of course got there at 5:15. There was no way I could tell Kam no after I had him all hyped up for it the whole way there so we got some anyway. He was so happy! An 8oz slurpee made him feel like the luckiest little boy ever, and I felt like the best mommy ever.
When we got home Kam went to his friends houses to see if any of them were home. A sad and bored little Kam quickly discovered that not a single one of his friends were home. This actually excited me a little bit. This meant I got to spend some one on one time with him. (Something we both needed after a long weekend in Rigby.) We made an awesome dinner of crabby patties, salad and fresh fruit.
When we were getting dinner ready Kam and I were practicing counting with baby carrots and hamburger buns when he asked why there was only 2 of us. I said "1, 2, me and you! That's just how it is there is 2 of us here!" Kam looked up at me and said "I wish I had a daddy at this house." I of course started to tear up, leaned down gave him a squeeze and said "Well with a mommy like me you don't need a daddy at 2 houses. We manage to do alright. One day you will have a daddy at both of your houses, but we have to wait until everything is just right." This little comment, or wish if you may, made me think. I told myself that I had to find the silver lining and couldn't let it get me down.
After dinner Kam and I went outside and played soccvolleybasketfootball. It was so much fun. We got to see two dragonflies and had a tickle fight. After we were all wore out we laid out on the grass and looked at the sky. It started to rain about three minutes after we were lying there. Instead of freaking out and running inside I let Kam lay there and LAUGH at the raindrops. Within no time at all we were both laying in the rain laughing our butts off. I am sure the neighbors think I am crazy, and that my son is taking after me, but it doesn't matter. We enjoyed every minute of it.
Tonight when Kam said his bedtime prayer, almost all by himself, he once more thanked God for his mommy. When I tucked him in he proceeded to tell me that he loves everything about me. After shutting his door I sat there and smiled. The silver lining to him not having a two parents at each house is that I have him all to myself on nights like tonight. I know that it might not always be easy, but it has always been worth it. Always. I can only hope that one day when he is older he can look back and know that his mommy loves him and would do anything for him. That is why there is only me at this house. I don't want to share him and his sweet self...yet. :)
Thanks for today Kam. I had the best day with you today.
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